Pooped- literally......

Gosh, hubby still not feeling well and I am so tired, however on a good note, actually a great note, I have decided to take on and try to start potty training little Pay. You see, she is very quiet and doesn't talk much, or when she does it is just "ahhhhhhhhh" or jibber jabber but she is great at learning to sign things and I am thinking I will start with that. Last night she made the poop face and I said "lets go to the potty", she ran to her potty and pushed up the lid- but oh wait for it- she then put her foot in there just to hear the music play(it is the type of chair when you pee or #2 in it it makes a rewarding sound). I was cracking up and of course she was wondering what I was laughing at. I changed her and got her ready for dinner. She is doing so well with a spoon, I get so excited when she accomplishes something new all the time- it is amazing. It is such a relief to be able to put her in her chair give her some sweet potatoes and nuggets and let her go to town while I get my plate ready or feed the boy. Speaking of the boy, whats up with him lately, he is waking up at midnight and 5am- gosh I miss the sleeping through the night stage!!!!! Anyway, back to Payton... since she talked nothing but about her daddy the entire time home, they read books on the couch and cuddled- while I took a bath and cuddled with my little man. She is such a daddy's girl- they are too cute together. Gymboree is tonight and Sooner start is tomorrow, Payton is usually so tired after daycare so hoping gymobree goes well, she may be too hungry or tired- oh well giving it a try anyhow. The things we do for our children:)

What a weekend...

Man what a crazy but totally fun weekend!!! Little Payton had friends over and she seemed distant- this was new, not sure if it was because it was Saturday and we were home and she realized all the toys she then had to share, but she was a little better after nap. We had a little break through too, she didn't hit her bubba one time Sunday- not once, she even let him sit with her in his bouncer- lol. The hubby was sick and man you realize how much you adore your spouse when they are away all day. After cooking, playing on the floor and reading "I love you through and through" 7 times (literally) I realized I needed a shower- hmmmmmmm didn't happen until this morning. I know I complain but I love this all! As I drove to work sobbing- I realized Anthony's role of dropping the kids off is the hardest thing to do everyday- I would be in the worst mood every day if I had to do that- A: Payton walks in like she owns the place and although she blows several kisses and I know she loves me, she doesn't look back for anything- she loves it there! B: I don't think a mommy ever gets used to dropping their big brown eyed, pudgy little nose, cute as a button baby boy off. He just glares up at me like, "my momma" uhhhh breaks my heart every time!!! Sooner start comes Wednesday, although I stress every time, little Pay shocks the hek out of me and most of the time it is more tears of joy. She is so precious, she helped me so much on Sunday with Brayden. She really is getting big girl and I hate it but love it all in one.

After Payton's friends left, I realized how much I miss all those little kido's that I got to spend so much time with before Brayden was here- hugs and kisses sent out from Mimi-xoxoxooxox.

She finally slept with us...

So last night was interesting, my husband is now home by 5 with our kids due to his soccer season and it is so much easier on me plus we can actually make a nice dinner and sit down together and eat. Oh how the husband doesn't know the routine though, you see he thinks it is so easy getting home with two babies from daycare and handling them for about 2 1/2 hours until he gets home- nope not so easy. They are both hungry and tired, it is a struggle to hold them both when they both are screaming at you to hold them, not an easy tasks. I think he got the picture last night. I finally told him, "you are going to have to move a little faster" when it turned 8pm and Payton had already had her bath, kitchen cleaned, Brayden bathed and him and I were both in our PJ's, he then knew why it was important to me to get things done. We could all 4 jump in the bed and watch the game and play a little. It is perfect. I am kind of one of those person's that can't stay asleep if I know I need to do a few things around the house. Anyway we played in the bed with Payton and Brayden, Payton jumped a little and her new thing is "row row row"- which tells me she wants to sing row row row your boat. The little man gets fussy which means he wants his momma, so I snuggled his little head in my arms and he passes out within minutes. Payton should def be in bed by this time, but when you work all day you usually want to lay with your babies, and that is exactly what we did- she fell asleep and slept hard core with us all night. I loved it, got lots of rest with my family all in one room and would love for her to do that again tonight, but my little princess tends to be independent and used to her bed- breaks my heart. Maybe one day I will get in bed with her and let her hold me-hehehehehe.

Getting Started.....

Wow, you know I always wanted to get started keeping a journal and finally I think I might do it this year- honestly I am the "see how it goes" and "ask me last minute" type of girl but why not give it a try. I have had a dream to talk to the world about my daughter, in fact during our annual Buddy Walk this will help others to read about the kids and what they have been doing all year! I'll start by expressing how much I miss Kya, she was our family dog after we gave Gino away and I became so attached to her beautiful coated body and her playful self. I miss looking in the back yard especially when it snowed and watching her bounce around like a little deer. I miss her so much, it breaks my heart to even say her name out loud or hear another dog barking. I wish I knew what happened to her, maybe it would put my mind at ease. I feel so guilty about these last few months, all she wanted to do is come in and jump on the bed, clean the food off the floor and then go back out- but I have been so busy and so has Anthony, I know she knows we love her, I know she does. She was smart and beautiful, gosh how I wish I could hold her one last time! I knew 2010 was going to turn out better, when God closes a door he opens another- So far 2010 has started with tears of joy hearing not just a woman who has been my best friend for 17 years but basically my sister from another family- is pregnant. She is so special to me and to know she is going to experience the most wonderful gift God could gives us, really has made my year! I can't wait for Payton to mother yet another child like she does Brayden, lol- well I would like to say Payton is motherly type, that is yet to come- she is still trying to get past being jealous of the little booger and for awhile I was thinking she prayed at night to wake up and him be gone, however sometimes she smiles her little smile- smiles so deep her eyes aren't even open and giggles at Brayden. It is so crazy to see the two interact, Brayden is really everything I thought Payton would have been with her disability- he has been sick, two ear infections, two diagnosis of bronchitis already and switching him to soy saved my ear drums! Payton, she was the happiest and the sweetest little baby, so calm and content, loved to play with you, but she knew chores had to get done so she was independent too. She is so very healthy and I think my poor little handsome boy has been sicker than she has in his 4 months on earth than she has in 2 years- so insane. Yesterday, after being super mom and taking them both for shots all by myself, hehehehe, I treated my self to a huge diet dr pepper from my one and only sonic and enjoyed Brayden napping in my arms and Payton across my lap. I began to cry- how lucky could I have been- how blessed and what did I do so great to deserve this happiness???? Those two are amazing! When Payton was born I literally thought I would never love another child like I do her and yes I do have to admit- there is a very special love for her I think we (my family) all have that no other child gets, but man oh man my heart does crazy things for my babies!!! And it is really crazy how much I love the chaos, and my poor husband will tell you I complain- but at the end of the night and look at the toys spread across the room and take one last peek at Payton (9 out of 10 times she has fallen asleep with her legs hanging out the crib- too cute) I go to bed thanking God for all this wonderful chaos and only hoping he will bless me with more down the road. More Kids, more responsibility- whatever it is I know I can handle!!