Crazy Wow times

We have been crazy busy looking at houses and then trying to keep the house clean to sell, I just miss my life with my kids every night and no worries. I gave many things to my God box lately and I should prob do that again, just kind of weird about asking God to take care of my petty problems, so many things going on in our country and world wide I need to be praying about.

Payton and Brayden just continue to be the bestest of friends, Payton tries changing his diapers and it literally makes me tear to see that unforgetful smile that Brayden only does when she comes around- man that is something sweet to see. I could have many of them two- and I am not joking, every where I go I get the "man you have great happy babies" and I love it!

Long weekend....

What does it mean when somebody says long weekend, because mine are long but short all in one- bitter sweet. Wonderful time with, J, Kel and Trin. Brayden was a sweet little angel, thinking he was liking all the girl attention and when Trin was holding him, he might of liked being close to pretty little Sloane still in her tummy. Was so cute to listen to the girls talk about how they will be when their babies get here, "my kids are never sleeping with me", "I am going to work out every day"- very cute when I know every single one of them's little heart is going to melt all over and become little saps!! Payton played tea party and so well by herself most of the day Sunday, bubba hasn't been feeling well and daddy was worn out from tournaments. She she joined me with Target fun and I got home too late so daddy was mad at me. Got Payton a few summer things and Brayden too. Gosh nothing like spending money on those cute little outfits!! Can't wait for Easter this year. Payton will be all over the place. Last year we put marshmellows her eggs so she would be excited about finding the eggs. I saved the outfit I had her in because it was too cute I couldn't let it go. She will be big this year and I bet just bet she will be able to say "bunny" or "egg". She is really talking so much better. She was so good yesterday until she realized bubba had been sleeping too long and I couldn't get to her before she wacked him with a rattle while he was asleep on the couch, oh gosh I could have squeezed her over it!!!! Time out she cried, so for the most part I know she knows she did something wrong. She signed sorry with big alligator tears coming down. Little man smiled after he realized mommy was holding him. Gosh they are rotten, both of them. He slept pretty good until 4:45 in his big boy bed again and went right back to sleep after a good bottle. They are both pretty good sleepers in there beds, blessed! Last week was waring him not sleeping much. He is just smiling and cooing and just talking and just played with Baily on Saturday night. Baily licked him and he wanted to pull her hair so bad. Can't wait for Baily to see her new baby brother or sister. So precious.

Soooooooo Big!....

Little guy slept in his crib for the first time, not sure if he would have slept all night- he slept on Anthony until 1am and then went to his crib and slept until 6:30, I am thinking that might be the problem- he is too big for the cradle now and no space. He looks so cute in his little car decor, I sure missed him though. As soon as he cried this morning, he was right back in bed with a bottle with mommy. I miss them both today, working to catch up on hours.

Last night Payton had play date with Jordy, they play so well together these days, well that is if Payton doesnt' hit, lol. I think Jordyn was doing better with hitting and Payton came back in the picture and taught her to do that again- not so funny but funny at the same time. They had a good time together. Payton must have been out of her mode because she didnt' eat until we got home. She is usually pretty tired after daycare, antoher reason why I think little guy slept better. Seriously thank goodness for Donna and her structure! Love to get me a good night sleep.

Payton's blood results came back great, a little anemic but she has a cold so they think that is what dropped her score a point. She is amazing, I can't believe how well she is doing- actually I can beleive it. She is her own little person, sure love her. Brayden is growing so fast, I can't keep up. He needs new pajamas and pants already. Anthony sometimes puts new born socks on him and jumpers that are way too small, lol. Such a cute and very good daddy. He had his first soccer tournaments today- first games too. He has been texting me the score, he has a pretty good team this year!! Hope they go far, Anthony would be pumped!! So happy for him to be doing what he loves. Can't wait to see my babies play sports. I think for the most part little payton will be in swimming, basket ball or dance. She here lately loves putting the balls in the hoops and trying to throw them in bucket from far away in her bath- too cute.

Not much happening this weekend, get to see JB and her tummy and Trinity and her tummy tonight. Happy all four my girls finally get to experience the mommy world. Can't wait to find out if I am having a new Anderson nephew or neice- going to squeeze him/her to death!! ahhh so excited, kind of hoping for a boy, Brayden needs more boys.

Funny!...

As I read last blog, I laugh and think it is so funny- because since then I have been so crazy and so busy. Not much relaxing going on in my house this last week and little Brayden has decided he is done sleeping through the night apparently. He is getting so big and mobile, moving all around and will be sitting on his own and crawling before my eyes!! He stayed with aunt kelly yesterday and was very good while we went to get payton's annual blood tests. Boy did I and my mom chase that little stinker all over the hospital. Auntie Sheryl helped with the drawing of the blood and Payton took it like a champ. Anthony took her last year and I hear he didn't belong there. She apparently didn't do well and Anthony cried more than her, lol. He is such a great daddy. Payton ran all over and talked to everybody and then she would turn and take one look at mom or me and run for the hills giggling the entire way. She finally ate pizza last night, new bribery- just pretend Brayden is eating it and likes it and she will try it. Cracks me up. Her and Brayden have a small cold and I guess their friends at daycare do too. I hate it when they get icky, that may be way little man is not sleeping well. Went and got mommy and me pictures taken for the DSA calendar, Payton was a mess there too and Brayden cried, because that is what Brayden does. He wants his momma all the time. I think for the most part they turned out pretty cute. Had a great outfit picked out and last minute changed my mind, then that shirt got spit up on so had to change again. I think they will turn out okay, lol. So funny how I look back to yesterday and was so crazy all over the place and today I just laugh at it- wouldn't give up it for the world!

Still trying to get the house sold and so annoying- if it doesn't work out I am not sure where we will put all these toys. I think they are good for the kids and Anthony says they are driving him up the wall!!!

Kido's are going to Nana Carol's and Jerry's for some play time while I make up hours here at work. Praying they play good and Payton doesn't spit breakfast food out on anybody, lolololol. We will see.

Such a calm evening...

Last night was not like most nights, for some reason I think we were all tired and just wanted to relax. After bath time the kids layed down and we all relaxed. All asleep by 9:00 and it baby boy slept until 5:15. Wonderful Wonderful catch up sleep night.

It was hard putting Brayden back in his cradle this morning after he ate and went right back to sleep, I usually hold him until I have to hop in the shower. He is getting so big and just the cutest little thing. Nothing like your babies snuggled in your arms sleeping. It is alway sweet when they smile in there sleep as well. He is a pretty sweet boy, he does a lot of whining and wimpering, most of the time just fake because he is like his daddy and doesnt have much patience waiting on his food. His hair is finally growing in at the top but the back is still bald as can be- just like the way Payton's was. For the most part it is coming in light, blondish so I am sure he and Payton will have the same hair color, which I so love!!!!! Kind of a dirty blonde that shines in the sunlight.

Covered Payton up this morning and laid her clothing out for daycare. I miss them so much all the time. I am going to be busy today at work so that always helps. Most of the time I wonder if I am going to regret being away from them this much while they are so little. Payton is just doing so much now and seems like she learns something new every day if not one new thing a couple of new things. If she was a tad taller she would know how to open the doors. She steps up on her step stool brushes her teeth (well really chews on the brush and eat the toothpaste) and then she turns the light on and off giggling. She cracks me up. This is the only way I can get her to let me blow dry her hair and brush it, then put it up in her normal pony on top. She was sweet allowing Brayden to get in the tub with her, I walked in there and she stood up with excitement and yelled "bubba"- then of course when he got in there she did the routine pouring water on him and washing his toes and feet. She has this thing with washing her feet and his feet right now. And ears for some reason.

Will be off early tonight, so looking forward to getting home to my babies and hubby for another night of American Idol and relaxing, well we will see if it goes that well, lol.

Momma's Boy vs Daddy's Girl....

Got home last night and was welcomed by Payton who was very excited to see me, she was so sweet- she has been jumping in my arms and hugging me and laying her head on one side and then popping up and laying her head on the other side- like she has to give me two hugs-lol. She is so much fun and seriously cracks me up! She does something new everyday that makes me laugh.

I realized little Brayden had a little knot on his head, why should I have even asked- but yes Anthony said Payton hit him with a rattler. Not sure why she keeps doing this and not sure how to control it- she is constantly in time out for it and 80% of the time she is kissing him and playing with him so you never know when to expect it. Brayden took one look at me and just started bawling- he loves his momma so much. Anthony laughs and rolls his eyes- but now he knows how I felt when Payton was a baby. She loved her daddy so much and he would rock her every night like I rock Brayden. So cute. Anthony sat on one couch with Payton and I sat on the other with Brayden while we watched Wheel of Fortune. Every few minutes I would look over to Payton and she would turn to Anthony and pat him then look at me and say "my dada". Cracks me up. I just told her "okay thats your dada".

Payton is not just riding her 4 wheeler but I think for the most part she is learning how to steer it. Anthony said he was making lunch and at the corner of his eye there she went around the corner down to the door. I can't wait for the weather to get better so we can all go for the ride in the wagon! That will be so fun. I can see it now, I am sure Payton will try to pull it instead of riding in it- she seems to be the boss lately. Anthony taught her to say "Yay!" and instead of running around singing "row row row" she was on her "Yay" kick all night. Everything was yay, even when she fell it was a "Yay" time. At one point in time bubba started to cry and she shook her finger saying "no no no", we all laughed but then she made her way to the back door, yep it has been a while since she looked for Kya- she looked out there and Anthony and I sadly just keep reminder her no puppies back there anymore. I wish this weather would go away and I am waiting for the time to heal our hearts. I think there is def a part of Anthony and I that thinks the house is lonely with out a dog, or maybe just without Kya. Can't wait to sell it and get something bigger, maybe we can start over one day with another husky. We will see what Payt and Brayden want.

Little man woke up at midnight but then slept until about 6:30. We usually put a blanket over his mobile or my robe to keept he TV light out, while getting dressed I hear this big laughing giggle- Anthony and I burst in to laughter, boy was he in a good mood this morning. So sweet and cute. He is rotten and so is Payton! Payton sits in front of him and reads her books- oh gosh this is anther video I would post if I could-that is simply the cutest thing ever. Brayden just sits there banging his arms up and down or chewing on his fingers drooling and Payton is jibber jabbering away turning pages like it ain't no thing to read a book, gosh I love it!

Payton actually didn't fight us this time laying down, I think she was too exhausted. She didn't have much of a nap and it was almost 9 before she made it to sleep. I didn't get to see her today, but gave bubba an extra kiss to give to her. I hope they have a great day at daycare and can't wait to see them tonight. Tuesday night- gymboree night but the weather is still acting up, hmmmm wonder if we will make it. Hope so.

Tea party'n all day!

Another wonderful Sunday with miss Payton and mister Brayden. Payton was in the best mood and she really is growing closer to Brayden. Loving the bath time with those two and he helps keep her occupied while I wash her hair and she keeps him occupied while really it can be kind of cold in the seat he sits in. They are sure cute together. I picture Brayden growing up to be this sweet handsome man and for the most part it will be because of his older sister. They stayed with Nonnie and P on Saturday while I dress shopped with aunt Natalie, we got the flower girl dresses and OMG cannot wait to see her in it. Hoping she will walk down the isle and not run or talk to the peeps in the chairs, lololol. Yesterday we played tea party, we don't play as well as Pa and Payton play together, but we get close. She sat Dede down ( her huge doll that looks a lot like Jayce- thats what Anthony calls her) and she fed Dede, creme, sugar, tea, cookies- you name it. We played and played, of course every time I would pick something up for myself, she would say "mine"- trying to teach her to share. Brayden and Daddy eventually made in in there, half time of New England vs Colts- 2010 superbowl (New England won :( ), and we all played tea party. So fun and couldn't stop laughing. I wonder when Payton will get old enough to say "stop laughing at me" because that is pretty much all we do with her- she is such a ham. We are using time out and it has become a game I think. She sits in time out and sticks her nose in the corner for maybe 5 seconds- then she turns around with her crinkled up nose and holds her hands out and says "momma" or "dada" and it melts your heart. We are getting better with it though. Thursday I may pancakes and she was banging on the oven door, annoyed I told her to stop and give me a few minutes to make her pancakes- she then raced over to her table and chairs and pushed her chair up against the oven door to get up there and watch me make pancakes. Anyway, I thought that was pretty smart. She has a step stool, but she knew she could use that chair instead. Another thing that surprised me (and I am not sure why I under estimate her, because she is super smart) I was playing with bubba's truck that you push down and when you let go it races across the floor- well it wasn't working well on the carpet and miss thing went over and put it on the ceremic instead. Its like she knew the carpet is holding her up so she took it over to the kitchen floor, anyway- might sound silly to some people, but I thought it was pretty smart.

Brayden is getting so big, he is such a cutie pie. He sat in his bouncer while I attempted getting our taxes done and just giggled and talked. He would pop his body (he is so strong) in and out and I would have to push him back up or he was eventually going to slide on out of there. Anthony and Payton ended up in our bed, fast asleep and how cute it was. She is really in that phase of crying and throwing a fit when she goes to bed at night, so we are pretty much letting her fall asleep with us and then putting her in her bed. She is so great at nap time, but night time forget it! Brayden took his time going to bed, but made fell asleep on my sholder while I rocked him in his room around 10:30pm and was still sleeping hard at 6:45 this morning when I left for work. How we were blessed with great babies, I am not sure- but they both are wonderful. For the most part well mannered- Payton is doing great sitting at her table until her food is all gone and she is signing "thank you" and "please" very well. She also has learned to sign sorry without asking. She is awnry and will try to hit bubba and I will look at her and she will sign sorry- she knows what my looks mean, lol. She still runs around with a baby wipe or dryer sheet and pretends she is cleaning, man does she love to do that, lol. She cleans bubbas feet and ears in the bath too. He just laughs at her all the time. He is constantly looking for her. His little legs are getting so fat and chunky, I just want to eat them. Again great weekend and love my babies dearly!

Snowing again- third time this winter. Thinking it is a record for Oklahoma. Love the snow and happy Payton gets to play in it but ready for it to be over too. Makes it dangerous to get my babies around and most of the time we pack up and go to Nonnie's incase our electric goes out. Not that Payton wouldn't mind that at all, but mommy doesn't get much sleep that way.

What a surprise!

Came home and found quite a cute surprise, if I had a picture I would surely post it! Little Payton colored and painted with her daddy and bubba yesterday and yep you guessed it, miss thing had paint all over her mouth. lol!! It was so funny. She was just playing along like nothing. She was so happy to see me and just wrapped her arms around me and hugged me over and over, I took her to the mirror and she kind of giggled like, what in the world? I miss her today, she went straight to bed by 8pm, which means I only got a few hours with her.

Bubba was so sweet but I am worried about his wheezing,spent most of my night waking up and listening to his breathing to make sure he wasn't wheezing in his sleep, wonderful daddy is taking him to the doctor today. He is so cute, wakes up and talks to his mobile and it is the cutest talk ever, half asleep Anthony and I just laugh at him. Still thinks the world of his hands and is almost sitting up, when I put him down to sleep he pulls up as much as he can, kind of like a sit up, so cute. I think it will be time to put him in his crib soon and like I was with payton, i will be sad! He has been sleeping great, waking up right in time for me to feed him put him back down and then I get ready for work. He is such a cutie patootie, seriously we have beautiful babies!

Best Sunday ever...

Not sure if Payton was just so glad to be home or what, but she was a ham yesterday. She has this new thing, she gets my purse, puts it on her sholder and says "bye bye" and walks to the door, she is so funny. She and daddy played all day, she and I took a great nap. After my bath last night, I found her jumping on the couch (we try not to let her do) and she was giggling so hard. She played with her vacuem all day and got to take her first bath with baby brother. She was a big help pouring water on him to keep him warm and washed his feet. I think Payton is starting to like him now that he is laughing more, rolling over and grabbing his feet. Anthony took her to walmart to grab some formula and apparently everybody got a greeting from her, lol. Gosh I can only imagine. Their pictures came in and they turned out fabulous, can't wait to see them on my walls.

Payton loved the snow, the first day she kind of stood back and observed and patted the snow man a little, second day she went for it- showed her how to make a snow ball and after watching Konnor throw them a hundred times, she finally tried throwing the snow. She got a chapped little face, but it was well worth it. She cried and cried to leave her Nonnie after 3 days at her home. But she will be back this Saturday, she is so dramatic and not sure where she got that from, her aunt summer I guess, just kidding.

Brayden is still wheezy, guessing we will be going back to the doctor this week. I wish he would wake up one day and all that be gone, but I am thinking it is going to take some time. I rocked him to sleep last night and it was so hard to put him down, Sunday nights are hard on me knowing I have to work the next day. He slept great and woke up right in time for me to feed and put him back to bed before I got ready for work. I love that boy so much, he is sweet sweet baby boy. He was great at my moms during the storm and so was Payton for the most part. I think he enjoyed his bath with Payton, he loves her so much and it is so cute to see how much he lights up when she comes around. He can be in the crabbest mood and then she comes over and he just giggles, so stinking cute!!! Can't wait to get back home to them today!! The are home with their wonderful daddy.

Snow keeps a falling...

OH it is so beautiful, I love the snow. Reminds me of Kya, but I love it so much, it is gorgeous. I can't wait to get Payton out in this, last time she built a snowman with daddy, now it is my turn to get out and play with her, how fun. Another night at Nonnie's, eating lots of food not good for us and playing wii, might have a glass of wine, who knows. Payton slept restless and was all about me this morning, I think she knows when I am leaving for work. She was so sweet and I hated leaving her. Brayden gave daddy a hard time, woke up 3 wonderful times last night. So funny when he claims his nights, Brayden doesn't sleep through, hehehe. He was sweet and got my car cleared off and then went home to clean up a bit and back down to Nonnie's to get the kids, only I think we may stay one more night. I am sure Nonnie and Papa are loving this, they love their babies. Payton hops up in the chair next to the fire place- oh and wait for it, sits still for a good 1 minute then she is back up again, showing off: doing flips (more like a roll), telling Peaches "no no no" with her little finger, trying real hard to jump and of course moon walking. She is so silly and I love it. She has finally conquered coming down the steps without holding on to anything- she is so smart and strong! I think she might have a little thing about chocolate though- she seems to spit it up most times, hmmmmm didn't get that from my side of the family. Brayden has been so wonderful, just rolling around grabbing his little toes and playing with Kameron. For some reason Payton hit them both yesterday, she usually loves Kameron, but I think she wants to be the baby. I am not sure what that is about, but she got in time out, no doubt about that. Hope she isn't growing to be aggresive. Jayce and Konnor play, Jayce tries to get up in Konnor's lap, but he is too cool, lol. Can't wait to post pictures of the snow, yay!!!

We will see....

Trying to blog about today, but we will see how far I get- kids everywhere and chaos the word of the day!

Started out early with the little man, he went back to sleep and wow what a quiet 1-2 hours I got, coffee, early news and a banana. Payton asleep with Nonnie, oh how comfortable they looked. Sister comes over before the storm, Kam, Konnor and Jayce. Payton and Nonnie wake up and Brayden too, wow the day starts. It actually starts pretty good and calm. The kids play, aunt su su plays "librarian" and reads to the kids, it was adorable. Summer is very good at reading and really getting into it. Payton has really played well with Jayce, in fact she teaches her new things. Kameron is teething, trying to bite an apple. Jayce is playing princess, mom and loves the table and chairs of Payton's. Earlier she played with make up and oh mi it was adorable. Mom/Nonnie is cooking because that is what Nonnie does and I am really trying to take a break and blog, but Jayce has already climbed in my lap to play on the computer. Little Payton finds the exercise ball and loves it, runs around "ball, ball, ball", now they are rolling it back and forth. with daddy that is, he made it safe down this time, thank goodness. Love my babies and love my niece and nephew, but if I hear "mine" one more time I might, just might lose it...no not really. So So funny, Konnor is out helping papa in the garage, I am thinking he has had enough too- oh wait the news- yep this ice storm may go through tomorrow- oh boy, wonder if Nonnie can stand us that long, she may be cooking all weekend long after this- lol.

Nothing like coffee in the morning...

Man I am so tired today! Last night Family gymboree went great, Payton cooperated more and I think she is getting comfortable now. She did really well tapping the instruments when she was supposed to and for the most part sat down and was calm- for the most part, lol. Brayden was just happy as ever sitting on daddy's lap and cooed and watched all the kids, he is so stinkin cute, just love my babies.

Got home bathed the kids and put Payton to bed. She was so tired from gymboree and daycare she zonked right out. This morning she met one of her new speech goals, I bend down to give her a kiss and she communicated 2 different ways at the same time and said two words together. She kissed me and then waved her hand and said "bye bye momma". So So proud of her. I think she will be talking in no time. She is already saying puppy and a few other new words. Crossing our fingers. I think tonight I will pick them up and give the hubby a break, I think soccer is waring him out. Brayden woke up again 2 hours after he layed down for another bottle, I think he went through a growth spurt, I think it is time for food- can't wait to see my baby boy eat some nana's and green beans. He is getting so big, so big. I got him on video grabbing his feet and just slobbering all over. He is so good too, just lay him down in his cradle when he gets fussy and he goes right to sleep. He is growing out of the cradle already and man how I will be so sad and so exhausted having to get up and go check on him in his bed. Anthony said we could move the crib into our room, maybe Iwill do that, maybe I will make Payton a pallet next to our bed as well and we can all squeeze in that small room. Works for me!!!!!!! lol.

Man of the Year!

Driving to work this morning, of course emotional because that is just how I am right now- I got to thinking of my hubby. Every time he takes my car somewhere he puts an old country CD in the player and sets it on a song so when I start my car and head to work, I can think of him. This morning he had a very sweet song in there, not sure who even sings it- but just got to thinking how wonderful he is. So this blog is to him and I hope one day he will read it, he is prob the very last person who would read it now, lol. Growing up my mother really never dated anybody, she was too busy working and taking care of us kids. I really didn't know what relationship was supposed to be like until she married Dar/Papa. I will never forget a girlfriend and I came home one night after out on the town and those two were dancing away in the living room (apparently practising for a big wedding they were attending). But it was the cutest ever. I compare Anthony and I to them very much so- Anthony and I met in college, went through a very rough time but ended up in a one bedroom apartment where we helped each other struggle to meet our goals and dreams. I remember staying up late finishing homework with books and paper all over and for the most part he was playing video games or watching football (gimney how I hated football), lol. We got married, I graduated and worked my way up in banking. Anthony is now graduating and has worked and ran the same small business for almost 10 years. Crazy- he has so much dedication for that job. Anyhow, my hubby deserves man of the year- he is the daddy that would never drop his kids off at daycare on his day off, he would much rather be at home teaching Payton new things and soaking up his baby boy. He always has the house cleaned and dinner ready- last night roasted chicken, corn on cob and potato's, yep sounds good doesn't it! He is most def the husband that goes out of his way to find me the best presents, sometimes very unique but gosh that is what makes him so cute. He once got me this Angel with feathered wings that glow different colors when you plug it in, it was the ugliest thing I had ever seen- but by golly I plugged it in every night before I went to bed- lol. He is just a super sweet guy. He is the type of guy to call me about everything, if I send him to the store to get bread, I have to tell him specifically the exact brand and type or he will come home with the cheapest bread on the shelf. lol, most of the time he has to call me to make sure he has picked up the right item. I can guarantee most nights I can lay my head on his chest and he knows that means I want him to rub my back. Anthony is the all around guy anybody would be blessed to have. He is super handsome, super athletic and most of all the best family man I could have ever hoped for. He doesn't want big bass boats or huge monster trucks, he just wants me and the kids and wants to do for us. I tell him I want another baby and his answer is, "we will see, I want to be able to afford to take Payton to see the world", how sweet is that. I just love him so much and although our marriage is like most and he can get on my nerves, I am the luckiest girl alive to have him. Now when it comes to NFL season that is another story, no I am just kidding he has really been so much better since we have had the kids. It isn't as important now as it was before they came about, lol. Anyway, hope most of this blog explains how lucky I am to have such a wonderful family. Anthony and I had the greatest time together Sunday, we just cut up and held each other all day like we had just met. I sure miss him all the time. Life gets ahead of us and time flies when you are having babies and having fun, but I really super miss him and I miss late nights, watching "Friends" until our eyeballs fall out and eating late night bowls of cereal. Playing yahtzee and the entire time I knew he was cheating to win, lol- yep that is my Anth Mr. Competitive. I miss that so much. Great thing is I know one day we will have that back, sad thing is that means my babies will be grown :(.

Daddy's girl was happy to see me last night, I was starting to wonder and get sad why she was avoiding me, but I think it is because we spend so much time together. I have noticed she clings to the person that hasn't been around all day, so since dad was home with her all day yesterday and literally she only had a 45 minute nap- she ran right to me when I walked in the door, so stinkin cute. She is holding your hand now and pulling you to whatever she has been doing. Yesterday she pulled me to the books (go figure) she loves reading books. Bless her heart she is most def in the stage of not wanting to go to bed at night so it is about an hour fight every night to get her to lay down. It breaks my heart because Brayden is always awake at her bed time and I know she is prob thinking why isn't he going to bed too. I just love her.

Little man slept in my arms yet another time for hours before I could put him down. You hate putting them down when you have worked all day away from them and know that the same thing will happen the next day. Oh gosh how sweet he is, cuddles down in my arm and just sleeps away. He could be crying his eyes out and Anthony can bounce him, rock him, pat him and nothing works like handing him over to his momma. He is starting to blow with his tongue and make some cute noises while loving those hands ( i remember when pay went through that stage) they just stare at there hands and try so hard to get their entire fist in their mouth, lol. They are like golden hands. He has about grabbed his toes too, he is just so precious and I miss him dearly today. Miss them both.

So so weekend...

Kind of had a melt down Saturday morning, but Saturday evening was fun, we got the kids pictures taken and oh I cannot wait. Yet another person who thought Payton was so cute and fun, when she really was an awnry little turkey the entire time. I can't wait to see how great they turned out, Brayden was sweet as ever and both of them were a tough crowd for smiles. Sunday Anthony and I had a date day, had lunch and saw Extraordinary Measures- of course I cried, but a good cry and thought it was such an amazing story. Really puts things in to perspective how we should be so grateful for our lives and the health of our children, but it also shows the determination in families to stick together as a Team through hard times. It was awesome. Payton had fun with her aunt p and nonnie, she prob showed off her cute self, wore her dress up shoes and petti skirt down the side walk and it was hilarious! She jumped on her horse, played her guitar and best of all threw her food across the floor to show them she didn't want what they fixed. Brayden, best baby ever!lol. I got home and yet another sad moment, miss Payton pushed me right to the side to see her daddy first- she loves him so much. She has really became daddy's girl, I am wondering if it is because of Brayden or because I discipline her and daddy doesn't' know how. He spanks her hand or gets on to her and feels so bad, he takes it all back and gives her what she wants, lol. Brayden and I rocked last night, gosh I love the baby stage. It is scary to see him grow so fast and maybe he is my last. My Payt is one special girl, but boy do I ever just want a house full of boys. Love boys. I think I want one more little boy and then me and Payton can be best friends forever and go shoe shopping while the boys stay home and watch football all day. Payton now doesn't just say Sprout because she loves that channel so much, she runs around yelling it- lol. We will start planning for preschool soon and I am so sad but happy about it all in one. She is going to be mommy's big helper soon, gosh they grow too fast.

starting the new year late...

So I have decided I am tired of all this sickness and so far this month January 2010 hasn't been the best, so I have decided I am starting the New Year a little late. January 31st will be our night to celebrate. Works perfectly since we were all sick and dead to the world on the actual New Year Eve. Payton was a terror last night, I am assuming because she had gymboree last night with daddy until 7ish and then went to visit Nonnie, which caused her to be starving by the time she got home. Hopefully that was the problem, she didn't seem to miss me much this week :( but I sure missed her. I hate it when you are so ready to just love on your babies all night and have a great night and it turns out they are too exhausted or sick, or better yet you find you have a pile full of laundry to get started and trash to be taken out before Friday trash men come. I hate that!!! Payton just cried in the bath last night, she didn't want anybody to wash her, she wanted to play and be cranky and then getting her to go to bed, wow was that a different story: she would scream "momma" to Anthony and "dada" to me every time we went in there. She was just tired. I didn't get to see her this morning, left too early for work but little man woke up nice and early so we got to eat together and bond, he is so precious. I broke his little breathing treatment machine, I tell ya if it isn't one thing it is the other, lol. I sure miss them both this morning. Payton has been crawling and climbing all over everything, climbs out of her crib at daycare and on top of her table and chairs at home- I guess I should be happy she can do all that, but boy it worries me when I can watch her. Tonight, I am going to feed her, give her a bath early and just read to her as many books as she wants- can't wait, I have missed her so much. She is so funny when it is time to put clothing on for the day, she pretends she is me, drags her finger and talks out loud what she thinks I want her to wear, pretty cute! Then that girl could wear every pair of shoe all day long if I let her, she loves shoes!!! She gets that from her nonnie. People ask me what gifts she would like the most and that would be shoes. She thinks she is miss thing with shoes!!!

Little Brayden is getting handsomer by the day, he is really so precious, still sleeping through the night for the most part and wakes up with a grin. His skin is so pretty and I am thinking he might have a tad bit of a wave to his hair. I can't tell if it is growing back blondish or dark, but it is finally growing back. Can't wait to get the kids pictures tomorrow and spend a day alone with my husband on Sunday! Him and I could use some time by ourselves.

Grow too fast, not fair..

I really think I might have a talk with God! Why do our kido's, our little babies that take so much time growing in our tummies have to grow so fast?

My beautiful baby boy is already rolling over, grabbing his toes, giggling and just getting so stinkin big!!! in 9 month clothing and not even 5 months old yet!!! Geez! Little Payton is finally saying more and more and although I am so proud of her, it just reminds me how big she is getting.

I have been in bed for two days with the crummy old stomach bug and just sitting listening to the family without me, yes it has been sad, I miss holding my babies- but I highly recommend it someday, it has given me the chance to sit back and listen. Reminds me how wonderful my husband is for starters- he cracks me up, you can hear him say "I am going to get you" and you just hear Payton's little feet prancing all around as she giggles the most cutest little giggle ever. Then you have our little birdie, Brayden- squealing every chance he can, especially when she runs near by him. I wonder what he is thinking in his head, I bet it is something like "oh man I can't wait to do that, looks pretty fun", he is so precious and just loves his big sister. He really thinks she is all it now let me tell ya, and Payton, oh she knows it, I think she will have Mister Man wrapped right around her finger like daddy is. Man she is smart.

I sure miss them being tiny, when they had to be swaddled by their daddy or they would cry, gosh those were the days- days are getting better watching them grow, but I am def the type that enjoys the newborn stages.

Anthony complains about the toys, but it brings tears to my eyes to think one day they will be too big for them. I want them to be babies forever, boo hoo.

Sure missing them tonight, kind of made my hubby mad and came out of the room to get a few video's of Bray to send to Nana. Then I ended up helping put her to bed, I know he was trying to keep them from getting sick, but I couldn't stand it, for the most part I don't think I go them sick, lol. He is such a great dad, def nothing better than knowing if something happens to me they will be just fine with their daddy- well that is up until it is hair time for Payton, lol.

our story...

So I have yet to blog "our story" and thought what a good time since I have had several people ask. You see, many moms I have met in the DSA always have a story, most good, not going to lie some are bad. 97% good, other not so good.
But ours of course is wonderful:
My husband and I always knew we wanted a good size family, 2 maybe 3 kids, puppies and a nice home for our family to grow in. Our families are quite large and basically they are what sealed the deal when we decided to spend the rest of our lives together. Anyway, we woke up one morning (new years day to be exact) and decided to have a baby. wow, did we know how not so easy it was, year or so past and has some troubles but finally after a wonderful doctor helped us, Miss Payton Dawn was conceived. I remember to this day Anthony, most nights, would come in the room before I went to sleep just so we could put our hands together on my stomach and pray over her. We wanted her so bad and I told God, "this is it Father, please give this baby to me, I promise I will take good care of her". Well along the way, I had a gut feeling Payton had DS. And when I say that, I don't mean I felt like something was wrong, I mean I knew she might have Down syndrome. I had every sign possible, if I would have followed my gut and tested for it, I would have found out earlier. Wouldn't have changed a thing, but deep down inside I knew God was looking out for me, He blessed me with a wonderful pregnancy, baby shower's and wonderful people surrounded us for this sweet Angel to be born. The morning Payton was born,before she was born, I even asked D, my nurse when she would be tested- so if that isn't crazy enough I don't know what is, I promise it too, my doctor will tell anybody, I didn't have that test so I didn't know she had it! I just knew in my hearts of heart I guess. When Payton was born, oh mi, head full of dark hair, dark skin, she was just as gorgeous then as she is now. I wrapped her in my arms and just thanked God, we had finally made it!!! We had our little sweet Payton in our arms. Later that night our Pediatrician came in to tell us they were testing, I knew it, I knew it all along- Anthony denied it and just knew it was a mistake, but I knew it. The test were positive, but when they told us the results there was something else- she had a large heart murmur. I think for the most part Anthony knew he was destined for a child like Payton, he had hired a woman with DS 4 years before Payton, but to hear about the heart problem- oh gosh here it came...Wow, what a shot to our hearts, as Anthony sat there crying asking what was going to happen to our daughter, I just squeezed her and squeezed her, didn't know what was going to go on but I wasn't letting my girl go... turns out I didn't. After many doctor visits, no visitors to the house, time went on and Cardiologist, friends and family were amazed by little miss turkey head, she was and still is the strongest little girl ever. She healed that heart right up by 5 months!! She crawled on time, sat up on time and wasn't too behind the charts on walking either, she really is amazing. Passed all her hearing tests and hardly sick. She has done so much for our family, she has completely changed me as a mother and as a person- she is just perfect! As my mom says " she is exactly what this family needed, God knew exactly what he was doing". We have met some wonderful families and very close friends through educating us on DS, we are now a part of a wondeful organization, in which I couldn't do without. It really has been a great life.

I still have people feel sorry for us and I will always have to fight that, but if I have not learned anything in life more than this, it is to know people with children with a disability can be happy. We are very happy, we would never care what our children look like or act for that matter, we just want them to be healthy, I am pretty sure that is what all parents hope for. Sure Payton is going to get sick and have some challenges- what kid doesn't, the great thing about that is that she has me and her daddy and now baby Brayden, we will fight for her! After all I promised God to give her to me and he sure did- I hope I make Him proud, because He sure made me proud. She is my one and only baby girl, she is one of a kind- literally a special little chick a dee. I think she is going to change the world, I really do, maybe little by little or maybe not the entire world, but she has already changed my world and so many others, just a few more to go- he he he.

Loving your job!

So my husband is solid proof how life can be so much better if you love your job! He is always so pumped to head to the field and teach others to play soccer. When we first met he really knew he wanted to be coaching and teaching, but he was always afraid- "the man brings home the bacon"- lol. He just knew that he wanted to make me happy and be with me, then we were both sure we wanted a family, after Payton was born he was sure God was sending him signs. So now that he has just about finished up school and is back in soccer- he is the happiest man ever. It just goes to show, what you really want to do every day can make a difference in every aspect of your life. I guess I would really love being a detective or photography. I love it both- I love watching SVU-Law and Order and figuring out it all, mystery movies are my fav. So Anthony has been on this kick of telling me I should do what I love, but I really love spending time with my babies so quiting my job to become Sherlock Holmes would prob not work out all that great. Anyway, just happy for him, so great to hear his voice every day on his way to practise, so excited!!! And he always tells me how he made the kids run and it was fun because he has prob ran triple what they have- anyway too cute and I sure love him and happy his life is complete. I learned from a friends blog to do something great for your spouse today, something he would love so I think I will head to get him a calzone (such an italian boy) and maybe a card (he will just throw away) to tell him how much I love and care about him. Thanks C for the advise!

Paying it forward....

So after being sad all day about the people in Haiti and thinking about them so much yesterday, I had a horrible dream we would have a huge tornado this spring and the world would end- yes I know it is not the greatest thing to dream about. However, it made me get up this morning in a great mood (Brayden sleeping through the night always helps) and I paid it forward- not too big of a deal, but did a great deed and it made me feel good. So many people come together end of Summer early Fall to help with the Buddy Walk, paying it forward is def no problem. I just hope it makes a difference in at least half the people I do it for and they pay it forward as well. I want my kids to learn to do good for others! I want them to be able to think it is a daily routine to help others in need (but using cautious too).

Little Payton had a great date night with daddy, they attended gymobree and had dinner at KFC, not her fav place but anything with mashed potatoes will do, lol. She came home and I was so very excited to see her, as I got on my knees to reach out for a hug, she stood stern as ever next to her daddy and shook her head saying "no"- broke my heart!! I was like "why payton, mommy missed you", she in a very sweet voice with a little giggle "my dada" as she patted him on the leg. Oh how cute they are- it literally brought tears to my eyes. When we got pg with Brayden, although we are grateful for whatever God gives us, we really hoped for a boy, yes maybe one day God will decide Payton needs a sister- however I think she is our one and only special little girl. How excited were we knowing we were having a boy, not just because of Payton- but because mommy wanted a mommy's boy as well. And of course that is exactly what he is. He is all grins with hims mommy and didn't make a peep all through dollar general visit last night, nor when we got home and I changed or even when he took his breathing treatment. He is the sweetest little boy and for the most part if his mommy is in view- he is just fine.

Both of my kids are pretty good- Payton loves her daddy and Brayden loves hims mommy. I know we will be blessed Payton will be close to us forever, but I hope I am not one of those crazy moms with Brayden who just wants to follow him anywhere even if he gets married and moves out of state- lol.

Pumped about this weekend, here lately I have been kind of wierd about leaving the kids- I just want to at least be in the same house with them at all times. But Saturday getting my hair done, spending time with family for an important birthday and Sunday I am going to use my Christmas gift cards all by myself- maybe I will take one of the kids, lolololol. Anyway that is the plan and looking forward to it. All mommy's need some time to their selves and to be honest I am a very good mommy when I get some time away. Next week is Pay's and I "mommy and me" photo shoot for the 2011 calendar and I don't have a clue what I am wearing, yikes.

Thank you Brayden Lee....

Such a rested night, little man slept from 10pm to 6am- hoping that it will continue to be this great here on out! He was sleeping this well for awhile before he started to feel bad, so hopefully he is losing all that wheezy stuff too. He is so stinkin cute, just laid under his mobile last night, as he fell asleep he just cooed and squealed at the mobile above him, Anthony and I just giggled, too cute! He is just smiling away and he def has the heart catching smile like his daddy. I miss them so much today!! This morning I went in to get Payton's outfit laid out and I thought she was asleep, all the sudden I heard "dada" and then I turned and she looked at me like she was surprised it wasn't Anthony and then said "mama" with a giggle, it was almost like she thought it was funny she called me dada and I am not him. I thought it was cute, but at the same time I am like, oh great I look like a man from behind-lol. Her aunt brought over her Christmas gift- music guitar, took Anthony no time to show her how it is used. She is such a fast learner when it comes to motor skills. Tonight is another gymboree class with daddy- she is getting so big- like a little girl. I love her.

Saying lots of Prayers for the people in Haiti, horrible horrible tragedy!!!! I remember the day it happened I complained my order was wrong that I got for lunch- gosh if that is the worst thing those individuals could have worried about that day... makes you think.